From Darkness to Light

Hello friends, family, people who do not like me and anyone else I did not include. I took a few days off of writing. No from recovery. I am in the process of installing new hardware on my CPU. I am trying to start new and healthy habits and making them become part of who I am. Reading and writing has to be part of that process, and I will work on that moving forward. I went to group today and there are three individuals who want to leave sooner rather than later. Guy #1, he

As an active alcoholic all I cared about was how I felt about things and how things affected me. I also over think every little thing. It is an exhausting way to go through life. I would convince myself that I was different. I cared about my family. I would make elaborate food for my family. I would build amazing pillow and blanket forts for my kids. Even though I had NO money. I taught myself how to bake so that I could teach my kids to bake and spend time with them. BUT the

Yesterday was my day 3. I attended a new PHP program and really enjoyed the day. After 60 days in the same program with the same instructors and clients; it was a breath of fresh air. One of the topics we discussed was acceptance. I told them that I have been trying to get sober for years. I have been working on myself, have been activity listening to the thoughts that enter my mind. If I consider it an unhealthy thought, I end the thought. I do not allow the unhealthy though