Things are ok. I even got some good news. Why do I not feel better?

I have been somewhat down the last couple of days. I just haven't felt "right".

Family - My kiddos are doing well. I try to talk to my older girls every day. My youngest is doing well. I do not really get to see her/ But her mom and my estranged wife just sent me a text with the baby saying "hi, daddy". I am somewhat surprised that the baby knows who I am, it's been so long since I have seen her.

Work - I have a stressful job BUT most days I really enjoy what I do and take pride in how I do it. I recently noticed a mistake with my payroll that led to a raise for me... hip hip hooray!

Friends - As I have said here before, I am continuing to keep in contact with other people in recovery.

So, things are ok. I mean if I am honest things are better than I could have asked for or imagined just a year ago. What will I do? I WILL NOT drink and I will keep on trucking.