Just like the elevator business, life and sobriety has its ups and downs.

It has been some time since I have posted on here. I have no good excuses. But I feel like I haven't been doing enough to support my sobriety. So, this is me taking sometime out of my not so busy day to try and help myself.

Let's Run Through what is going on in my world:

1. My MUCH better half has decided that she wants a divorce. I am not mad; I wish her well. I have been saying jokingly for years that if I were here, I would have left me years ago. But we do have a child that I am unable to see much of. Also, while my ex told me that she wanted to part ways. They made it clear that I was not what she wanted for the father of her children.

2. Family - I have a very stressed and fractured relationship with my immediate family. This causes some stress. What kills me is that I am not allowed to call my father directly. If I call my parents condemned home, I am forced to talk to my mother; the person who spent her life tormenting the people she brought into the world. My dad has been hospitalized twice this short year. But I may not be able to talk to him. Hannaford to go is a thing and there is a Hannaford in the town in which my parents live, and I am able to send him some of his favorite food that they would not be able to afford.

3. My older kids. This will sound strange but breaking up with my 2nd wife has actually brought my 1st wife and I closer. We are not friends BUT we are talking and were both making more of an effort to coparent. I spend as much time with my older kids that I can and I text them every day. Even if sometimes they don't text back BUT i remind myself that they are teenagers.

I am sure there are 1000 other things going on. But those were the most pressing in my mind. But what I am more than anything is GRATFUL!

If I were drinking, I would have no relationship with any of the above people. I wouldn't be able to see any of my kids. Now that my 2nd wife and I split, if I were still drinking. I'd be in court just trying to get visitation rights. But truthfully, when I drink... I give everything away. Rather than just going to court and trying to do the right thing. I would get wayyyyyy too wasted to even show up in court. Because with the drinking, for me comes anxiety. For those of you who suffer from addiction, you'll understand.

So as of 1712, on Thursday 02/19/2026, I am sober and I am happy to be so.