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Yesterday wasn't a perfect day: I didn't sleep well. I was up and down all night, running to the bathroom. I woke up nauseas It hits me that I haven't seen my kids in too long. I am lucky that I can text them every day. But I can't wait for my next hugs from my kiddos. I got an unexpected bill. I got some potentially bad news. Yesterday wasn't a bad day: I got up, wasn't feeling well. I sent a text to my roommate and to the program I am in saying that I wasn't going to progra

I am not better (but maybe worse) than some alcoholics/addicts. I am happy for the sobriety I had and have. When I am sober, I have been working every day to retrain my brain. Intrusive thoughts that used to physically stop me in my tracks. I think them, label them as a "disease" thought and stop the thought and keep moving on. I know that sounds simple, BUT it took me a long time to figure this out. Future Tripping? I am so over this. If there's one thing I know is that chan

Hello friends, family, people who do not like me and anyone else I did not include. I took a few days off of writing. No from recovery. I am in the process of installing new hardware on my CPU. I am trying to start new and healthy habits and making them become part of who I am. Reading and writing has to be part of that process, and I will work on that moving forward. I went to group today and there are three individuals who want to leave sooner rather than later. Guy #1, he

As an active alcoholic all I cared about was how I felt about things and how things affected me. I also over think every little thing. It is an exhausting way to go through life. I would convince myself that I was different. I cared about my family. I would make elaborate food for my family. I would build amazing pillow and blanket forts for my kids. Even though I had NO money. I taught myself how to bake so that I could teach my kids to bake and spend time with them. BUT the

Yesterday was my day 3. I attended a new PHP program and really enjoyed the day. After 60 days in the same program with the same instructors and clients; it was a breath of fresh air. One of the topics we discussed was acceptance. I told them that I have been trying to get sober for years. I have been working on myself, have been activity listening to the thoughts that enter my mind. If I consider it an unhealthy thought, I end the thought. I do not allow the unhealthy though

I am the proud father of not 1, not 2, but THREE girls. I am most defiantly a proud girl dad. That includes having my toes nails painted more time that I'd care to remember, make overs with ALL the make up! I have always told my older daughters that bad things in life happen, that's just part of life. I also told them not to look for the next bad thing BUT instead to keep their eyes open for the next good thing. No matter how small and when a good thing happens no matter how

A couple of things here. 1, I always wanted to be funny and s an alcoholic/addict who was so afraid to show who he really was and in turn never really found out who I am... I modeled myself after funny people. Now I know that a lot of you are thinking "modeling yourself after funny people does not make you funny" and I 100% agree. BUT I have been to rehab 10 times and here are a few things I have learned: At first people think I am an asshole (I hope my swearing does not offe

Sobriety in my experience is a roller coaster, with the highest highs and the lowest lows. Today is a high, a good high. Not the kind of high that will cost me my family, friends, home and children. Some may not consider today a great day for themselves. After all I spent last night sleeping split between a friend's couch and living room floor (I am too tall for the couch). I have about $300 to my name (just spent most on that setting up this site) and my wife has told me tha

Recovery often feels like a long, difficult road filled with setbacks and challenges. Yet, amid the struggle, many people find moments of laughter that help them heal. These moments don’t erase the pain but offer a powerful way to cope and move forward. This post shares real stories of recovery where humor played a vital role in healing, showing how laughter can lighten even the heaviest burdens. The Power of Laughter in Healing Laughter is more than just a reaction to humor.

Addiction recovery is a difficult journey filled with challenges, setbacks, and moments of doubt. Yet, amid the struggle, laughter can become a powerful tool for healing. Humor offers a unique way to cope with pain, build resilience, and connect with others during recovery. This post explores how humor supports addiction recovery, practical ways to incorporate it, and real-life examples of its positive impact. Why Humor Matters in Addiction Recovery Addiction often isolates p

Alcoholism affects millions worldwide, touching lives in ways that often go unseen. It can feel isolating, overwhelming, and hopeless. Yet, recovery is possible, and it often begins with connection—finding hope through shared experience and support. This post explores how individuals and communities can come together to overcome alcoholism, offering practical guidance, real-life examples, and encouragement for those on this journey. Support group meeting providing a safe spac