68 Days Sober... My therapist made a good point to me yesterday. I may have 68 days sober. But I have been sober all but 5 days for the last three years.

I am not better (but maybe worse) than some alcoholics/addicts.

I am happy for the sobriety I had and have. When I am sober, I have been working every day to retrain my brain.

Intrusive thoughts that used to physically stop me in my tracks. I think them, label them as a "disease" thought and stop the thought and keep moving on. I know that sounds simple, BUT it took me a long time to figure this out.

Future Tripping? I am so over this. If there's one thing I know is that change happens. Change can be small; I changed PHPs to one closer to where I am staying. Change can hit you upside the head like a sledgehammer; my wonderful wife has been on tis roll coaster of my sobriety and has requested that we end of marriage.

I am proud of her. I can't tell her that because I truly don't know what to do or say to her about anything.

But I just take today for today. Today my kids are healthy, happy, emotionally supported and have access to food and clean clothing. I have access to the same. I have this blog which help to keep me sober. I have a wonderful friend who has welcomed me into her home. So, for today, I am a lucky person. I am not worried about tomorrow. I have no idea what is going to happen, so how could I anticipate the next change? I can't.

It is the same thing for my sobriety. I am not going to drink today! Tomorrow, I don't know.