Day 4 - Self Reflection & Over-thinking

As an active alcoholic all I cared about was how I felt about things and how things affected me. I also over think every little thing. It is an exhausting way to go through life. I would convince myself that I was different. I cared about my family. I would make elaborate food for my family. I would build amazing pillow and blanket forts for my kids. Even though I had NO money. I taught myself how to bake so that I could teach my kids to bake and spend time with them. BUT the amount of money I spent on alcohol. The money I spent on booze that I didn't actually have. In reality I was a very selfish and self-centered person.

These days I do not allow myself to over think:

1. Who has time for that? I don't. I am halfway through my life and wasted too much time of the first half being that person.

2. I discuss things with trusted friends. If there is something nagging at me. I talk about it. I think about the information and I move on.

3. A lot of times in life there is no closure. I ripped that band aid off because I drank a lot over not having closure.

Self-Reelection is good. Self-obsession is bad.

Every night I write a Nightly Inventory. I do not over analyze on my behaviors. But I review my day in an effort to point out where I fell short and where I can improve and be a better person tomorrow. I know that I will never be perfect. But I would like to be a person who cares about others and treats others well.