Yesterday, Day 67

Yesterday wasn't a perfect day:

• I didn't sleep well.

• I was up and down all night, running to the bathroom.

• I woke up nauseas

• It hits me that I haven't seen my kids in too long. I am lucky that I can text them every day. But I can't wait for my next hugs from my kiddos.

• I got an unexpected bill.

• I got some potentially bad news.

Yesterday wasn't a bad day:

• I got up, wasn't feeling well. I sent a text to my roommate and to the program I am in saying that I wasn't going to programming.

• I went back to bed and slept till almost noon.

• I figured out a way to pay the bill. I made a call; I didn't just sit and stew in the bad news of the bill.

• I spoke to my kiddos yesterday and they miss me as much as I miss them.

• The bad news ended up not being as bad as I thought it might. In the past, just this alone could have taken me out.

I had moments yesterday where I really wanted to drink and use! But I took steps towards staying sober:

1. I made a phone call and took action. Instead of just sitting around dreading everyone and everything and think the sky is falling.

2. I wrote a nightly inventory

3. I talked to friends who are also in recovery

4. I reached out to my kids to tell them that I love them and guess what? They love me back!

5. I stayed sober. I made it to today. I know I will stay sober today.